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Posted:Feb 1, 2019 2:36 pm
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2019 3:51 am

Just a brief update. headed back to TX for my usual trek., probably in a couple weeks. I will be doing the usual hunt for good junk to take back with me to AZ for the antique shop. I will also be doing some family gatherings. not much has changed other than the for niece with the possibly gay boyfriend. The secret is sorta out. the boyfriend and her have had some deep discussions about sex. the intent is to still refrain but he acknowledged he has had some feelings for male friend.but thinks its just a passing thing . a phase. And because hes refraining from sex he felt comfortable telling her. She evidently started that conversation reveling essentially the same same sex interest, but not going to act on it. so they are still promised but curious? amazed that we are in an age that they can be brave enough to share something so intimate and also something that makes them so vulnerable. Even more amazing that that are so aware of varied sexual desires developing ,yet still choosing to abstain. i heard this revelation from my sister and then my niece called and revealed it to me. they are keeping it a secret. I didn't say that my sis had already told me. i also agreed to talk freely if her boyfriend wanted to talk about stuff. again im so amazed at the times a changin'. i expect i will see them when i visit.
Posted:Dec 31, 2018 7:31 am
Last Updated:Feb 1, 2019 10:47 am

Holidays are different for everyone. I love my family and friends and enjoy travel. I was able to do that this passing holiday season. While I encounter the usual challenges that many do, I opted to make the most of it. My flight delay resulted in some terrific people/crotch watching at the airport. I had eye contact and resulting conversation at a small town supermarket with a couple guys that were visiting family as well. The town is small and redneck Trumpland. While we weren’t straight off of Rupals runway, to most it would have been obvious we three are gay. We chatted about families, small towns, the possibility of meeting up for drinks or something. Our schedules didn’t mesh but the interest was there. I even saw their profiles on Growlr later.
Family time was interesting too. My sister has a new boyfriend...300% total redneck macho man. And total train wreck. They belong together and it seems to work for them. He did use the word fag a lot, followed by insincere apology. I also noted he seemed to be packing in his tight starched jeans. I made it a point to stare at it and him to make him squirm and be uncomfortable. It worked...and unfortunately raised my curiousity and interest in sex. Fortunate they couldn’t visit long because he had to go to 2 other gatherings to see his kids and exes. Another observation was my teenage niece and her boyfriend. She’s accomplished, fuller figured, chunky, extreme Christian/fundamental. She’s also pro border wall and believes in the ancient alien theories of our beginnings ...because god created them to advance us to heaven. I think all or at least most of things are to rebel against her parents.. the more interesting thing is her boyfriend is sooooo gay. I’m sure he knows , but is fighting to keep the closet door closed until he’s in more accepting place. She was also showing off the “Promise Ring” he gave her as a symbol that they would abstain from sex until the are married. She had given him a bracelet indicating the same commitment. Many of us collectedly rolled our eyes , grinning....and containing our giggles as she announced their committments. I would have raised a glass to toast them, but we were have a “dry” day. The guy is charming, sweet, very handsome, athletic, a little geeky... I could even crush on him if he weren’t 15 ish.
I’d say the holiday was eventful in good drama.
Holiday travel
Posted:Dec 15, 2018 9:56 am
Last Updated:Feb 5, 2019 9:26 am

Travel always excites me on a deeper horny level. The thought of a hookup wit a new pal in a new place. I like repeat encounters but they don’t happen enough. Those one time things are sometimes all I can get. There is magic in the connection where you can get a little wilder than with a repeat. Repeats allow for a continued increase in trust and comfort. The the newness and possible urgency can take it on the expressway.
I continue to be optimistic that I will have some sort of encounter . Sometimes it’s could just be a knowing glance in passing that says I’d suck your cock until your head caves in. Or a bathroom glance at a cock at a urinal or indirect in a mirror. I like that the holiday seems to bring more guys out. At miminum there is more to people watch and wishful think.
Pre-Halloween Fun.
Posted:Oct 29, 2018 6:36 pm
Last Updated:Feb 1, 2019 10:49 am

As Usual BZB pulls out all the stops, welcoming all sorts of costumed playful types. I applaud so much creativity. it always delights me to see people transform ,or let their ego self step aside, simply by wearing a mask, and or costume. so often it brings out the bold gregarious side. showing a little more skin, being a little more flirty. as expected there were boobs a plenty. i delighted more in the exposed mens chests, and men in tights, or costumes the had " costume malfunctions". I saw more exposed or semi exposed dick than expected. almost as much as a gay pride event. At the Quarry I even "helped" re adjust and retuck a scarecrows cock that just couldnt stay in the 4 sizes too big pants with the broken zipper. His girlfriend? "dorothy" didnt seem to mind. I also enjoyed the 2 Cowboys...a couple that i understand werent really in costume, as thats how they dress daily living and working in the re-enactment show in tombstone...
Travlin' TX 10/2- 12
Posted:Sep 27, 2018 1:04 pm
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2019 5:38 pm

Well Im headed to Tx for my usual every couple months trek to see family and friends. I often reach out to profiles that interest me in the areas Im going to be in. I usually have a few people reply , but only a couple time have I actually connected with someone in person. I know that many in the little towns I visit are unable to host, and many are needing a discreet contact because of their relationship status, or being somewhere in the closet. No Judgment. I just wish I knew the key to successfully meeting up with someone, even if it didn't end up with SEX.

I think Im a not threatening, normal guy. I do show up. I have had a pretty high tolerance for the guys that don't show or have an interesting reason for cancelling at the last minute. But my tolerance is rubbing thin.

I know its much like fishing, some nibbles, ...part of the fun is in just having your pole in the water. I guess I'd like to reel one in once in a while. catch and release. Hell, I'd be happy to hook onto an old tire, just to know there is something in the water. Im open to suggestion? What sort of success have you had in meeting up? what is your bait?
Reflecting on past “excuses”
Posted:Sep 6, 2018 9:09 am
Last Updated:Sep 29, 2018 4:58 pm

I recently became aware of a friend/ neighbor having a discreet relationship with another friend/neighbor who is married. a pretty trustable and discreet guy. Not a gossip. And certainly in no position to judge or cast stones. He currently uses the excuse of the remodel project he’s contracting. He says he’s getting serious feeling and doesn’t know how they will be able to continue once it’s completed. He even suggested he’d like to use my place as the place to meet up when I travel. It seems like a possibility. He does occasional handyman things for me ( I wish he were bi or gay!). She come over for visits, to gather veggies or borrow/ bring something. So it wouldn’t seem odd to both be at my place and encounter each other.
Anyway, in my past , I recall a few excuses that were used to meet up. I have met up with posters on Craigslist , who’s wives were home while we went into garages/ shops to check out tools or whatever was being bought or sold. Certainly most contractor trades have a legit excuse. For men it could be. Fishing/ hunting trips, car shows etc. not sure what excuses there are for str8s. . not trying to come up with excuses to use for them or myself. It just makes me ponder and reflect. ( and long for a hookup)
Been a while
Posted:Aug 29, 2018 6:31 pm
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2019 5:38 pm

Well. I haven’t posted in a long while. There really hasn’t been much to post about. I lead a pretty simple life. I manage to get an occasional bj.
I sabotage a few possible hookups because they are locals. It’s such a small town. Perhaps when I knew someone I might be ok with setting up a no strings buddy thing. I think it could get weird playing with neighbors or locals. I’m a pretty active out there publically guy. It isn’t like I’d see someone once. It could be more like once a week. Possibly even once a day. And add to that awakwardness if the guy is married or in the closet it gets even more awakward. I do miss man on man action. I miss affection and intimacy more.
But for now I’m ok with masturbation. I’m pretty good at it.
Wow , the weather
Posted:Feb 13, 2016 2:36 pm
Last Updated:Sep 29, 2018 5:00 pm

Wow...a month ago there was snow, now this week we will be seeing 80's. I can work with that too. Hi 70s currently. Big Valentine's Day weekend. I don't mind being single. I remember being in an LTR, and would go thru the joys / celebrations in coupledom. Perhaps again someday. For now I can celebrate some self love.
Posted:Jan 9, 2016 7:24 am
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2016 2:29 pm

It snowed here and I love it. I'm happy with the move here for so many reasons. I round out each day reflecting on the things I'm grateful for. I wrapped up the year end amazed with all that has happened to bring me here my newfound inner strengths ( and weaknesses). My determination and my impatience. Small regrets, incredible lessons. And lots of positive insight and accomplishment that assure me here and now are the best places to be.
Winter travels
Posted:Dec 16, 2015 2:20 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2016 2:29 pm

As a pre- holiday treat my sister is coming to visit...driving. And she thinks it's a great surprise for me to ride back with her to tx and surprise the rest of my family.... I'm likely to do it however I'm mixed about keeping it a secret. Mi don't like surprises much and am not sure how I'd react if my sister showed with additional guests, family or not.
Anyway if you are in the greater east outlying area of Houston- Liberty,Dayton, Crosby, Winnie Baytown etc. let me know if you wanna meet up for some holiday cheer..and or at least an awesome BJ.

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